you don't really love me, do you? so why did you tell me those words? why? it just made me too attatched to you. i can't seem to let you go, yet. but i know i have to. i have to, if i want my life to finally be right. actually, i can let go of you, whenever i want, whenever, wherever. but you've been someone quite permanent in my life that i can't see myself in a day without talking to you. but you're not real. you were never real. you were some wild imagination. YOU WERE A LIE. a lie that i have been so used to. something that wasn't true. but because you were someone who constantly take my attention, i have been blinded to see what's true. i was gradually believing that you were perhaps TRUE. BUT you're NOT. how could you be? you were never there for me, especially when i needed you. you won't be there even if i was going die! YOU. i don't even know what i am to you. maybe some toy? a past time? someone who you can just toss around, mock and joke at whenever you want. that's why i NEVER LOVED YOU LIKE I WANTED TO. THAT'S WHY I STILL LOVE HIM AFTER YOU CAME.

I DON'T LOVE YOU.
BUT WHY CAN'T I SEEM TO FINISH IT OFF WITH YOU?
PERHAPS, BECAUSE I SAW A COOL FRIEND IN YOU THAT'S WHY.
A FRIEND.
YOU WERE NEVER MY BOY FRIEND
YOU WERE JUST A FRIEND.

damn!

huli huli ako sa kabila eh.. dito kaya mahuhuli pa kaya ako?

sana naman hindi na..

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wala ka pa bang gagawin???!!!! wala ka bang gagawin????? kasi ako ginawa ko na ung part ko, ngaun alam mo na kung BAKIT.. gusto ko naman ngaun malaman sau kung BAKIT... gets mo? hindi? wag mo na iget...

sana sabihin mo nalng na NO! na WALA! para di na ako naghihintay sau.. malay mo ung isa dyan pwde ko na seryosohin.. [kahit never magiging seryoso sakin un..] at least wala na sakin, o sau kung masaktan pa ako... diba?

kasi u made me think na meron eh... e wala pala. sobrang it's soo embarassing to tell someone those things tapos biglang AKALA mo lang pala.. hindi pala siya totoo. kaya spare me from more humiliation and just tell me so. kung wala, isang makaling NO! oo, iiyak ako. iiyak ako ng todo. pero isang iyak nalang un, it'll be the last tears i'll shed for you... mas maganda na un, tapos na agad lahat... no more beating beside the bushes.. or whatever idioms you want to describe it.. T.T

sooo...

why don't we get it over with? right?

get it over and done...

para WALA NA...

pwde ba?

bakit ganun? pwde bang di na sagutin ang telepono?

why don't you dieeeeeeee...


diba kanta un?

fotah ka, bumalik ka pa! dun ka na... >.< argh!!
ginagawa mo nanamang miserable buhay ko!!
bakit ganun, kahit wala ka ginagawa... haha!
sira ulo na ako dahil sayo!!!

wayne static of static-x...
wayne STATIC of static-x
okei??
tae,
tama pala siya...

wag ka matakot masaktan
ayus lang un,
masaktan ka
kasi dun mo lang malalaman na
may nararamdaman ka pa pala...

I HAVE TO HAVE YOU
dammit!!

I WANT YOU BACK...

laber,
hangkyut mo!
hangkyut kyut mo!!! xD
nanggigigili ako sau!!
hahaha!!!!!!!!!!
bat ganun
nung last ko kita sau, kakabeach nyo lang, tas tanned ka
ngaun, bat bumalik na agad kulay mo?!?!
haha!!
alam mo bang nakita ko dad mo sa aeroport nung papnta akong province,
akala ko nga kasama ka eh,
hinahanap kita! xD
syet...
crush kita!! xD

How long have I stood outside, looking back up at you, like an outcast from paradise?

An hour?

Ten minutes?

A second?

All night?

Little bits of glass still ride the wind. Cutting little snowflakes. I blink and wonder how many microscopic bits I am collecting in my eyes.

Can you see me? Did you know I could be bleeding, again?

Can't I… go back up there?

You said it was my choice. But you were the one who closed the door. You were the one who doesn't want this. Your weakness- it's my strength…

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! die layout die!!!
emfete!!>.<

OFT::
**vain ka ba??** me nakita akong blog, syet, di ka ba naman nagsasawa sa mukha mo eh, >.< (taray ni lex ha! xD) ung background image ba naman, nakaplaster ung mukha! buti nalang, inedit sa photoshop, blurred ung mukha, kundi lahat na ng taong pumunta sa blog niya, ay naku! dali daling magclick ng EXIT... akala muumuu ka.. hehe,

palibhasa, photogenic ka, or is it... photoGENEric? haha, nakuu... buti nalang hindi kita kaanu anu (irony.. sarcasm, whattever you people call it.. mwahaha!) grabe, di lang ata vanity yan eh... narcissim na...

is there such a word as narcissistic?

dyos koooooo.... di bagay, pwde sana kung mukhang adonis or aphrodite ang mukha AT katawan mo... syet, isa nga lang ang pwdeng itawag dyn eh...

ANEYLAB

ONT::
rant rant rant... umayos ka blog!!!! >.<

note::
i humbly apologize for my inconsiderate and shitty attitude... napagtripan ko pa ang aking kadugo( at least, what is left with it.... 1/1000 na kadugo, pwde ba un?) hahay, pish tau-- oops, peace pala!! haha! xD
hindi ka pala taong tubig, paumanhin

p.p.s
ang BAD ko talaga..
i;m freakin' EVIL
evil i tell you, EVIL!!!
mwahaha!!!

okay, now is time for alex to go inside asylum and sing...
"i am special,
i am special"
while rocking back and forth...

argh!! nakakafrustrate!! sira ba blogger or what?!?! bat ganun?? from bad it became worse... >.< darn it!!

RANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANT

friggin layout!! dammit!! x/ ARGH!!!!!

die!!! die!!! die!!!!!

haay.. aus na rin toh... tinatamad na ko baguhin ehh >.< alex=tamad haha!!
gusto ko na tuloy gumawa ng sarili kong layout... haha! ahh, magagawa ko yan balang araw, inaalex lang tlga ako ngaun.. nyaha!
haay, grbeh... WALA parin tlgang datong... funyetz... >.<

i can't rant... i'm too happy to rant! too happy to even think of anything else! too happy to think of pain!!!

take me to your heart is playing... huwaw... kahit it's from my parent's room i can still hear it... xD